My heart can't take anymore of this.

I'm so over school. Losing sleep and stressing over teachers who really, shouldn't be teachers. I'm over being so useless and disrespected by my younger siblings who give me shit every single day. I'm over dad for being so selfish and unappreciative and for making an absolute fool out of himself which I can't say jack about. I'm over being such a let down to my peers, and I'm pretty fucking over being underestimated by everyone, some including my mates. I can't stand being lied to but I have to adapt to it because I get it every day. I'm over trying my best to shake off the thought of you with this whole boy business but no, your morals clearly need to be re-evaluated and no, I don't remember every single guy that's had a fucking conversation with you because that would just be stupid and do I care? No, so get that hair flicking, trying to be cute face out of my grill. Tbh I'm mentally and physically unstable right now and all I want to do is have a decent conversation with my psychologist because she's probably the only person that I can consolidate with. I can't even stress this enough man smh just writing this makes me want to cry. I'm over being abused by everything and I want out.