Sharing Different Realms.

I have been thinking (and I mean thinking a lot), — can anything be definitive? Can we really define anything at all? I mean, we are asked by others to define us to them what we are, who we are, and how we are, and more than often we find ourselves struggling to explain to another who we really are. The question is not whether we know who we are or are aware of our actions but why are we so ignorant of our understandings that we find ways to misconstrue everything? No definition stays stagnant, no definition stays the same and over time, these small definitions accumulate into something larger, something on a grandiose scale. 

I scanned a tree in his backyard and I tried to define it: I could tell you what I saw, I could tell you what the texture was like, I could tell you whether it was dying or living, and I could tell you so many other things — but how can you define that? I am not satisfied with “a living organism whose roots bury itself deep beneath soil ..” and other typical bullshit. I am not content with obvious answers, I am not content with just knowing what the world wants us to know. In simpler terms, I prefer to dig deeper for things that the world fails to recognize.

And it does stand true (I am so certain is does), that everyone senses their own things, has their own perspectives, able to see things that others don’t; it will then only seem quite plausible to say that we all do not share the same reality. That my reality is your imaginative world, a place where my compassion is your anguish, my exertion of affection is your image of death; what a beautiful place we live in. These answers are never enough. I want to try something, however — but I can’t talk about it because it ruins everything.

I just need to know one thing. 

Man’s (reference to human, not the gender) thinking has evolved a lot over time and it saddens me to know how easily we, as modern homosapiens, can so easily overlook something and focus way too much on the present. He told me, “if you don’t know the past, you won’t know the future.” It reminded me too much of this: the best predictor of future behaviors are the past behaviors; my god, how true it was for me in that moment.

I always have something new to think about everyday.