I hope you read this, I really do.

I don't want to have to deal with this man, I have someone who loves me and sees in me what I cannot see myself. You cannot even bear to look me in the eye. I told you how I felt, you left it hanging by a thread. I've turned around now and I'm trying to walk away. I don't want to let my feelings get in the way again. As if I hadn't suffered enough last year. God just leave me alone, don't talk to me, or I swear I will fall on my knees for you so hard again. I'm only just nearly 17, you know that I have lots of love to share, but I know that I shouldn't be fighting with myself for this. I don't deserve this, any of it. Why is it so hard to get over someone who never even loved you? Mind you, it's been nearly two years, and I'm afraid to say you're too late. I need to move on, you know, for the both of us. What is love anyway? Go figure. Sounds like a hand full of bullshit to me.