Christ, help him

You know everything Lord, I've told you time and time again in my constant prayer. I'm so sick of crying and feeling like a useless bastard. This should stop now. Please don't take him away from me, please stay with him and let him live his life. Fucking oath, I'm even cursing. I'm just so tired, like all of this has the potential to destroy me. Please, just please. He's going through such a rough patch, and because of this my spectrum of worry has reached its end. I feel like I'm hurting more than him more and more each day, and what the hell, I need a break.